January 2009
40 posts
“- I knew that there were no guarantees. No way of knowing what came next for me,...”
Its like that ?
Damn, Im not tryna ruin any friendship you guys have, Haa.. Im not a big deal. Never even knew it was happening! I guess i gotta talk to you now? BtwOh my, I feel so organized w/ everything now. I organized my makeup shit, my accesorries and everyhing’ ahha story of a girl! Fuckk, I feel accomplished tho. +Random ass heads, calling my name all the time’ Wtf is that. o_O School today...
Sha la la la la .
Fuck my life, Hahaha’ Its so whatever now. School was wack, fuck the stupid fire crackers’ scare the shit outta me. It was cold today, weathers fucking around with us. Oh, and after schoool? My digits? Haa, i don’t think so. Afterschool, My mom went to salon so i went with her’ I decided to dye my hair. Its so weird tho’ darkbrownish red? I don’t even know what...
Speechless.
Confidence is the biggest factor. Use it well.
I don’t knw what to talk about anymore. So, here are my only quotes blog. Hahah
“Everyone has their fantasy world.The one they go to when reality is too much to handle.Where you’re not fighting just to get through the day,the hour, or the conversation.Sometimes we all just like to stay there a while.”
And she finally broke.
I can’t open my heart anymore. it’ll take more than an “I like you” to get in. I guess Im back to where i started, before my first came in and messed things up.
Im probably the most insecure person out there, But you know what’ I consider it to be a good thing. At least i’ll know whos strong enough to stay and impatient enough to leave.
And maybe thats the...
“- Too often, the thing you want most is the one thing you can’t have. Desire...”
– Grey’s Anatomy
Know us guys.
Jahckey: you know us guys, it's just hard to stick with one girl
Jahckey: SERIOUSLY
Jahckey: most boys are harsh seriously
Jahckey: they see better looking girls.
Jahckey: then bam
Jahckey: your done
Jahckey: they know nothing about GIRLS feelings
Theres always a goodside.
“I remember all the late night talks and all the words I was so comfortable saying to him, but I never would have been able to say to anyone else. I remember all the songs that take me back and make me smile. I remember all the promises, the ones we both knew would be broken. I remember all the moments he took my breath away and how he knew more about me than I thought anyone could. I...
“- Strange, isn’t it? how negative stuff all seems to happen at once. one...”
These are the questions that I ask myself.
Random ass times where the world stops and I ask myself questions. Its, very confusing honestly. My littlest decisions affect things in a big as way even tho I didn’t intend for it to happen. I reallly really hate having times like that. Ahh, fuckkk how everything changes in a quick second right? Where things come when you don’t see it coming? I need to stop blaming myself for every...
“- I’m not broken - only slightly damaged. Self-inflicted - I would never...”
"Oh hes in the bathroom"
Had a bakesale at church today, MMMMM. thanks for the donations! Hhaha, stayed for a bit and played DDR non stop on my phone, hahah its hella addicting. Went home w/ my brother and shittt. Later went to Lesleys house and we went to the mall with Junnabelle to watch My bloody Valentine! Karl bought tickets for us, but we heard that they check IDs and shit at the door. So we made Karl buy a ticket...
lleiraMarielllll: im not good with dinero
DL 9: 13:26 PM): oh then yeah give it to me i can be your bank ahahahaha jk well you knwo what you do
DL: you should do*
lleiraMarielllll: HAHHA
DL: im serious i will xD but you can always buy a piggy bank and put your money in there(:
lleiraMarielllll: HAHA
lleiraMarielllll: i used to have one!
lleiraMarielllll: but i would always have the urge to open it
DL: LMAO well have the urge not to then, well one of these days then ill buy you this http://mudflats.files.wordpress.com/2008/07/piggy-bank.jpeg then that way you wont have the urge because you cant open it, you have to break it hahahah
“- I’m starting to realize my indecisiveness is a far worse fate than...”
Only when I'm in the mood.
Kind of like that. Oh man, i feel so complicated sometimes..Haa’ srsly I don’t ever know what i want. Last day of finals today! I feel…like I BS’D my biology final now.. Wtf, thought our grade doesn’t go down if we dont worst on the final than our orginal grade…=/ I feel asdghhkl. Bye bye B…HELLO C. Fuck me Millers test was fuckng hard okay, ughh’ i...
“-You know what really sucks about falling for a guy you know you’re not...”
– Another Cinderella Story
Kinna paranoid, Kinna tramatized.
Just when things are gooing “Peachyy keeen” Ha, gotta come in the picture again. Hm, its whatever’ Pathetic shit, I learned that im better off cutting off, ya know… it actually helped me a lot tho, Hahha’ i don’t hate you. Trust me, i don’t.. Im now in the process of “ its whatever no suprises kinnna thing.” If you guys get what i mean. I know...
"Why do we call it a brownout ?"
Actually, I don’t really know why most filipinos call it a brownout instead of a BLACKOUT. But we had a blackout during school today’ right when break started’ so we got to get out early! ;D 12;00! My teacher said that never happened since 3-4 years ago’ Lucky us! Afterschool went to watch BRIDEWARS’ with Lesley and Junnabelle “thriple threat?” HAHAH, what...
“- you didn’t love the boy too much, you loved him too well. and at our...”
No time.
For any deep meaningful blogs, HAHA’ im hella like blahh. Im still on the time of the month, and i don’t have any patient with anything, so its whatever. Ive been recently in love with mac makeup, and sephora. AHHh i love going there with my mom = $$$. I never intend to spend any money on makeup, cause theyre expensive, but worth it. Maybe its a phaze.. hahaha but lately ive been...
Okay, I guess.
I GUESS. i don’t even know whats up. i don’t know what to say right now. I GUESS, is all i can say…I guess your done? I don’t know. My bad If im not trying hard enough like you want me to, Ha..my bad for being busy all the time. Its not my fault.
i fucked up anyway, Sorry for wasting your time.
Sometimes, it feels like I’m on top of the world. But then, i looked...
“- I know I’ve made a lot of mistakes, but I don’t regret making any...”
Get the picture yet ?
Todayy was chilllll. It wasn’ tht cold, maybe cause i brought tea in the morning. I don’t have any shit to talkabout anymore, ahah wtf.. ahhaa. HAPPY BIRTHDAYY AARON btw, hope you have a good one. Yeah, walked to hometown buffet with hella heads but ended up going into little groups and shit. 12.76 for dinner, i dont think its worth it, but its aarons birthday so whatever. Haha, i...
“- I’m not even going to get mad anymore. I’m just going to expect...”
BAD day, to start out the year.
I don’t even know, Im always the bad one in everything (according to my family) Yeah, i may be stubborn,LAZY,HARDHEADED. Okay, lets face it, Im not a perfect daughter, Not EVEN CLOSE TO THAT. I feel so low, about myself. My Brothers right…about me. =( Yesterday was the first ttime he actually yelled at me, like YELLED YELLED AT ME. My dad..HAS SO MUCH PATIENCE WITH ME, And i...
Bad day to start the week.
I could not sleep at all lastnight. I should have never took a nap and try to sleep through the whole night, Causeee i doubt that woulda happened. I woke up feeling sore all over )= My neck hurted the most tho. IT WAS SUPER COLD this morning! And it started to sprinkle after 2nd period, ugh i was wearing my boots too. Oh boy do i LOVE juicy secrets. Don’t tripppp! You got it easier than I...
Fyi.
New year, new challenges. meaning forget the past, and look onward. Delete past blogs!(=
“-There comes a point in your life where you get tired of chasing everyone and...”
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Goodbye 2008
First blog of 2009!, ahah no’ it doesn’t feel any different. As for this year.. i hope it will beat last year, by a WHOLEE lot. God i pray(= Im going to get better grades, push for better grades…. No more ditching, no more sleeping in class, no more doodling, no more texting during class. (okay, txtings not gnna pass) No more acting like a bitch in Mr. Murugans class, whatver her name is’...
